My genting trip!

Hello there peeps and light. I reached Home, close to midnight yesterday. My mom fell terribly ill on our second day of the trip. The business meeting/seminar/leadership was all about making income. How to earn US$100,000 in 6 months or become a millionaire in 2 years. I know the techniques though. I am not interested in earning my money through health products. Though, i am going to guide and help my parents prosper in this business. Gain more prospects,conduct more seminars and earn their million. My uncle tried to convince me as well as other people.My sister and i are the youngest. People constantly telling us that we should join this business and that we have great potential. We should be lucky to be attending to this meeting.

Oh for christ sake, leave me alone.Just like what Mr Mike said, " Never let anyone tell you what to do with your life. Not even your parents or your best friend." As such, though my uncle mentioned, i should consider myself lucky to be helping millions with their health products. I told him, My passion will and always be for acting and having my own production company. I do not wish to settle into this networking job. I can always help and make a difference in the world once i have attained my status in the cinema industry/film world.I don't mind earning my million through it until next year, to help for either my degree or achieving my passion for acting.

We had so much frustration from the seminar, that we lied ,that we lost our wallet and escaped the seminar for the theme park.For good.Muahaahaha... Fuck the business meeting. We had loads of fun. I played the space shot. My sister said that i am an insane bitch. When i was up in the seat, as i was up there abut 10 feet high up, i could see nothing but heavy mist. I swear for a minute i thought i was in heaven. "GOD," I remembered whispering.As i was pulled down, i felt my heart beating.The excitement. I NEVER FELT THIS ALIVE. For the first time, i saw emptiness up in the air. I met silence again.I felt the same joy just like punching against a wall for pain versus pleasure. When i came down, to meet my sister she told me that i was nuts to do such a thing. I admit, I am the only want in my family, who is a dare devil.

Next was the SPINNER. We were in a swing, ready to get spinned. Started drizzling. As i was spinned up in the air, the cold raindrops biting through my skin. I felt the wind. I had the most amazing feeling. That i was free.Free from all the problems that i had. I could do anything i want to do. The feeling, I am invincible. I was silent enjoying every moment while i was up there. While others were screaming in joy or in fear. I saw happiness in my sister's face. When i closed my eyes, i admit i saw him. BF. I feared. Feared in being in love. Once a friend, told me if you are confused just close your eyes and you then make a decision. God why are you messing up with my mind and heart? Well,while i was there, the only person i missed alot was my brother.

Anyways, my mother fell extremely ill. My sister and i took care of her. It came to an extent that i had to hold her hand to get up from bed. She was weak. My fear haunting back. Don't do this to me god.

Haha, you know something else occurred to me. I remembered having a vision that i was going to be at a room, where the wall was removed. And a guy pulling down a silver cloth. I did not know what it was. Had this vision ,a close to 2 weeks ago.I told my aunt. Next thing I know when i was at the seminar, i told my sister, i swear that the wall is detachable. She was silent. Staring at me. Like do i care kinda look?I mean how can a concrete wall be removed. IT'S A WALL!!. I thought i must be crazy though for the familiarity. Next thing you know, the last seminar on saturday, the wall was removed right before my eyes. And a malay guy removed the silver cloth from the board. I said under my breath, you're good GOD. Messing my mind, light.

The ear blocks were a killer. Even now, my left ear hurts, still blocked. Anyways, though for the boring seminar, My sister and i Met MR YUMMY. A chinese guy who looked so handsome. I mean seriously he has sharp features, not skinny or fat just nice.Cute ass. God!!! Light he is just so yummy.I told my sis we should tell him.By the way his last name is NG. He was the cameraman for that 2 days of seminar.Oh god please let him be a singaporean. I want to meet him. Our only survival from not sleeping at the seminars. I want to know him.You know what i should give him to my sister...A great gift. My sister deserves a yummy guy like him.God he is so delicious. I can't believe I'm saying this. But who cares. Let it be...

I guess you will realise that I was not able to understand my mom. She was too busy being sick. So my only escapism my book. And can you imagine, until the extend that i was reading my book, with the toilet seat down,at 2 am,sat 19th april. I didn't want to disturb my mom and sis from the annoying lights.

So for now, i will leave you with my videos. I hope you love watching them. NItes..Back to reality.