Dhoom 2 - Dhoom Machatha - Dhoom Again Tamil Full Video

Another fav of mine.

Lindsay Lohan - First (music video)

One of my fAV music videos..lindsay is my fav actress..

No sleep tonight

U guys got to watch this movie, "The sisterhood of the Travelling pants." Highly recommended

JoJo - How To Touch A Girl

If you really know how to touch a girl, You can rule the world....Enjoy

JOBS

Hey people and to light... Today i had an interview at the Fullerton hotel. On the way, I met my ex-classmate Kenneth. We talked throughout the journey until he dropped off at Dobhy Gauht station while i got off at Raffles Place. I have never been to the business district before and it's my first time. Boy, I say the buildings are just so huge, tall and majestic. Well, for the interview, it went well. I met a Malaysian Girl there who was trying to get a job in the Fullerton hotel, so that she can quit her other job from some other hotel. It was nice talking to her though. If I am not wrong, her name is Eng Eng. Anyways, hopefully she gets the job. Today i even tried out for a job from the mediacorp radio. Thank god the Human Resource officer immediately responded to my email. Hopefully, he likes my voice. Can't wait to send it to them. Would have to tell this to Meena tomorrow though. Anyways, i got a call today at 10pm.I have to go for a third interview at the hotel this thursday.Although, i'm not that excited. Oh well, i just hope i get the Radio job. I'll have to pray even harder. Well, that's about it. Oh before i forget, do you people find my blog too long? Hahaha. My sister's friend Nab, commented that my blog is interesting however it is too long.GTG..nites

Life Just Gets "better& better!"

Hey guys...these past few days, I've been doing a lot of thinking. I am really upset and don't wish to talk about it. Anyways, i hope you guys out there are having a much better life than me. Here i am writing in this pathetic blog of mine wearing my dorky black specs with reader digest on the table to my right, reading about inspirational stories and neither of it inspires me for now.(Sigh) Although, i don't know why i have been going "wordy" these days. Always trying to learn a new word to enhance my knowledge. Like it ever makes me feel better to know that I'm not stupid. For you readers out there, here are some words that you can learn.

Gnu (NOO) -African antelope
Poi-Hawaiian dish
Peck- Unit of measure equal to one quarter of a bushel
Ecru(EK roo)-Beige: "He was finding trouble deciding which suit to buy. Would it be the black one or the one in ecru?
Olio-Hodgepodge
Inert-Inactive
Cache(Kash)-Hiding place
Ogle (OH gull)-to look or stare at
Creel- Fisherman's basket
Pekoe-black coffee
ague-A fit of fever and chills

Plus let me suggest to you a book that you might one to read if you're bored or or don't have a job like me. ( I didn't get the Ritz Carlton job.HOORAY.Cheers to the loser who is so unlucky.)Back to the book. The book is called "THE PARDON," written by James Grippando. It's a national bestselling author. If you love to read thrillers or murder kind of books you will love this. By the way, I hate love story books.

Please don't ask me, why am i upset? As i have said before in this blog, that i will never ever ever reveal any PRIVATE & CONFIDENTIAL issues other than to my diary.Other than that, i haven't told anyone, not even to my sis.( I asked her to accompany me down to the park to see the sun set today. She can see that i'm not myself, i was just staring blankly at the moving clouds up in the blue sky.) I'm trying not to cry here.Haiz, i hope by going to church tomorrow will do me good. Anyways, nothing much to say for now. GTG! Nites.

Autism is the "IT" thing

Hey people. Are you aware of autism? What is happening to children these days? Today i watched the Larry King Live show in CNN, in the afternoon. The show was about the autism epidemic that is going on in United States.Also, Bill Cosby and others talked about autism.For people who do not what is autism, it is when a kid has speech delay , lost his language, lost his ability to potty-train and basically loses the social abilities. Living in their own "world," oblivious of the surrounding around them.

1 in 150 American kids are diagnosed with autism, 1 in 94 boys on autism spectrum and it is considered a national epidemic but most importantly a global one. Also, this disease is affecting more boys than girls. THE FIGURES WILL CONTINUE TO INCREASE. It is frightening to know but this is reality. Who knows, when you people have a child in the future might be diagnosed with autism . What will you do then? Cry your heart out? And question god and yourself why me? Something has to be done NOW.

Bill Cosby the legendary comedian sets off to be in NYC on 9th of April this year, attending a concert namely "Autism Speaks," spreading awareness of autism to the public.The headlines for today was "Bill Cosby and Toni Braxton VS fastest growing serious developmental disability in US." What shocks me even more is that, with such an epidemic staring right at us, where kids presently are more prone to be diagnosed as autistic than categorized into diseases such as AIDS, CANCER or any other diseases.Also, autism is not taught in medical schools, no doubt it is another incurable disease that they should look into. That is unconscionable.It surprises me.

There is no medical detection at all other than the other diseases. However, mind you, if you think that autism spreads through contact with blood or through needles just like Aids.YOU'RE WRONG! However, does it spread genetically. Not confirmed yet, no doubt for a few cases. Even Pediatrician Dr Ricki who was there in the show, she talked about the effects and the symptoms of autism.How to detect it from your child? Basically, the lack in connection between the child and the parent. Be it eye-contact.

Thank god for the kids in America, there is an organisation called "AUTISM SPEAKS," which is a 2 year old operation and it is mainly reaching out to families who do not have any financial aids, for example to pay for the kid's speech therapy and also they're not being accepted by their communities who are unaware, who needs help and are being ignored by the public.Which is unacceptable.

This organisation is spending a billion dollar on mainly to work on the research for a cure and education for the next five years. And it is only the start. Most importantly, their goal is to get the government to wake up and say 'hey we have an epidemic here and we have to do something about it." The co- founder of this organisation is Mrs Suzanne Wright.She has a grandson who is diagnosed with autism at the age of 2. If you want to know more about autism and its effects please do go into this website: http://www.autismspeaks.com/.

Including Bill Cosby, there were Toni Braxton who is one of the famous and successful R & B singer and has won many awards.She has a son who has autism, she spoke out her thoughts about this issue too.Even Actor Gary Cole has a daughter, Mary, who is diagnosed with autism at 18 months and is doing great right now.

Now these are the questions, is there a cure? Is it genetic? Heredity? Environment? are there Vaccines? We do not know YET!

But what is my concern right now is that, when America has already put their finger on this issue. What is Singapore doing? Oh yeah, wasting A LOT of money on the development of casinos and plainly claim that " we're trying to attract foreigners into our country. And we estimate that it will definitely create a lot more jobs and the percentage of employment will increase.So we think that casinos and integrated resorts are essential for our economy."

COME ON! we have enough attractions already. Why waste the money on these things and not use this money wisely and smartly. Like using it on finding a cure for autism or atleast help these kids have a normal live here.FOR A START, Get the public to be aware. Singaporeans got to wake up! If you think just by posting "MINDS" advertisements in bus stops will do any good in educating this ignorant public then i say, YOU'RE WRONG!More has to be done. Should i record a 2 week video observation of an autistic child's life just to show and prove to you how many Singaporeans( young and old), giggle, tease, give disgusting stares and laugh at these innocent kids.While parents or guardians have to choose to either stay quietly and consume the embarrassment or exchange vulgarity and middle fingers at each other only to create even more commotion and stares from others. There is a lot more to learn here. We have to do something to wake our government up and get them to do something.

Why can't our government come up with an organization just like Autism Speaks and provide funds to these autistic kids.Why are you so concerned only on normal kids.Go get them to go through proper speech therapy and not waste precious money on casinos which eventually will only result to increasing in divorce rates ( mind you it is already increasing even more, before the casinos) and crimes.

Also, i saw the advertisement on having to end poverty by 2015. This reminds me of the time when my ex- social studies teacher, Mr Siva said in my ex-class in my secondary school, that "guys when you get out of this place then you will know how dirty it is. There is a COLD, COLD world out there!" Oh Boy , HE meant it. The amount of money spent on weapons alone, is billions! It is mainly just to kill innocent people even more than just saving lives.What has the world become today!!!Selfish? YEAH.

So think!!! Ask yourself then, am i wrong to say that our government is spending money so blindly? Do post me your comments in the cbox. Thank you for reading my blog though. Nites.

Any Rich People out there?

Hey light and to you people out there. Nothing much going on in my life. Other then surfing the Internet for scholarships, for me to use for my degree in Australia. Money, Money, Money!

"No money don't talk!"

Haiz! I'm not going to give up!I'm going to keep trying. Anyways, there was this "Free Education Services" company is willing to enrol me. Have to discuss this with my dad later. Plus, my sister got another offer to go to nanyang poly to do Nursing. Now she's confused on which poly should she go? NYP or NP? She has to make her decision quick. No doubt, the course is the same, the benefits differs. Hopefully, she makes the right choice. Well, that's about it. Nothing much going on in my life. Haiz, if only a rich dude is able to pay my fees for nothing in exchange! Dream on girl! I'm sure i'll figure something out. Oh i really hope that i do the degree in Creative arts. Only a miracle will help me out, to get through this.Gtg, nites.

Another Day Out!

Hey Light and guys, as i have said in my previous post that I'm going out with my aunt,sis and bro.Last minute, my sister said she doesn't want to go. Asked her what was her reason, plainly she said to me "I just don't feel like going." I wonder sometimes maybe she's just not able to face the look on people when they stare at us whenever four of us go out. I don't blame her. Even my parents don't know what we are going through. They will never know how we feel. I mean how can they feel the pain and angry when they never take the chance of bringing their kid out all by themselves. It just makes me hate them, sometimes when they don't realize how much, aunty have sacrificed for them. Leaving her own son and taking care of this boy that concerns nothing to her. She doesn't get paid, not even a cent. How ridiculous it is! Makes me wonder,what is my parents trying to do.I'm not trying to insult my aunt neither my parents, but even a maid gets paid. Anyways, my brother was really naughty today. His eyes always scanning for pamphlets to tear and i always make sure that he doesn't see any of it.Well, i tried. At times it just doesn't work. Although we did had fun as we went to marina square, esplanade, got to see the merlion, went to the St.Andrew Cathedral, walked along Padang and that's about it. We then head back home. Again my left eye twitched, and within seconds guess who i met, Elizabeth. She just finished her work i suppose.

I watched my favourite Prison Break Season 2, which is finally out today . It just gets better and better. Gosh, Wentworth Miller he looks good(Hehehe!) as always and to think that he had gone through over 100 auditions in his career to even get a steady role in like Prison Break. I don't know if you guys remembered him in the movie "Underworld" he acted as a doctor with that curly hair.Hahaha.He looked so different. Although, in today's episode, i didn't expect Veronica the lawyer to get shot. Bastards. Even the police department is dirty. Anyways I'm getting too tired to even type this post.Actually i do have a lot to tell but don't intend to.Maybe tomorrow.Until then nites.

Be Positive!

Hey Light and guys. Nothing is different in my usual routine for today. Just my mom bought my aunt a new wardrobe and exchanged the current one with some guy name "Ramalingam" after buying from,Aunty Wendy. A very rich lady!Anyways back to the wardrobe thing. After we shifted the new wooden wardrobe against the wall in our living room (eventually my aunty will be bringing it along with her when she gets a house most probably this may). So happy for her that she will be getting a house finally. Not confirmed yet, but hopefully. The thought of my parents being so irresponsible and delayed the time for her to get a house for nearly 10 years, it disgusts me. But i can only blame them partly, the town council is also blamed for her to wait this long. Selfish people!

Well, tomorrow my aunty, sis, bro and myself will be going out. And on Friday i have a lunch day out with my best friend Janani Nair. So long never get to meet her and talk to her. Although I have a feeling that when I'm having lunch with her on Friday, we're going to just munch on our food, and just look up and smile, and continue eating. Most probably, as we're walking along the shops in causeway point, i would definitely say 'Oh look at that red blouse, isn't it nice?" She will nod. And then i'll continue, " I love Red," nodding my head. Turn to my right and ask myself under my breath, "I love red? Girl what are you thinking? You never get to meet her for so long and you start out with that kind of conversation!"

But then again i got to remain positive. I will not know how the lunch will go.Hopefully it will go well and not as worst as what i depict. Awkwardness and uneasiness!Thats all! K gtg. Good day!

P.S Meena good luck and you will do fine on Saturday. Best wishes.And no, i don't feel angry at all about the neoprints.

Philosophy Of the freakin day

Hello people. No doubt, i have already posted my blog earlier on the happenings for today. My Beautiful insisted (ANNOYING) sister wants me to add this!

"It is not what kind of job you get! But HOW well you do in that job, it does make a difference!" That's about it!

You happy now sister!( Cant say no, because she is sitting right next to me.Staring right at me! Black mail! Haiz, all the things that an elder sister has to do for her younger siblings).

Interviews!

Hey guys. Had two interviews straight from 11am and 2 pm. Ended up sitting down in the sitting area in Ritz Carlton, walked around marina square, ate lunch in Mac, then back to the Human resource department. The second interview, i was interviewed by the director of guest relations, Mr Vincent Ho. I had to answer all 55 difficult questions and the all time favourite so common question, it goes something like this, "so tell me, a little bit about yourself?" Anyways, i have to wait for the letter for 2 weeks to confirm me to get the job. Hopefully i get the job. I'll be able to save money for my degree. Plus, i have to go for the meeting with the La Troube University consultants. I have to remember to ask them on the scholarship though. Hopefully i get it. At the same time, i was thinking of putting university of Melbourne as one of my choices. Plus, i have to call the MDIS consultant on the issue of scholarship she send to me via email. She sent the wrong one.Today in the afternoon, my left eye twitched, and guess who i saw. Dawn from my normal academic class. I was shocked to see her while i was walking back home, with that long hair! She never had long hair. Change is good & it definitely looked good on her. She's studying in ITE on the course of business. I can sense that she forced the word "ITE" out of her mouth. I told her its ok. You can work your way up to eventually going into poly. She smiled!

Do you know that Simon the judge from American Idol? I assume you know. Do you think he went to a good university and did a course that will help him in becoming a music producer? YOU'RE WRONG! He didn't even do a college degree. Ended up working as a mail boy. A Mail Boy! He is a man of confidence. He must have hoped that one day he will be a famous music producer. And definitely his dream came true. So people, just because you have 8 A1s, it doesn't mean that you will have a solid future, neither a person who has just 5 credits will end up a failure, not true. You too can have a bright future if you put your heart and soul in it. It is all in your hands. I know i will make it! K, gtg.Nites

The Usual!

Hello! Today as usual, I did the usual & old boring routine. Wake up in the morning at 8am.Toss and turn. I was too lazy to even get up. I hate early mornings, even though i love the fresh air. The time flew so fast that my clock broke!( haha, not to get so dramatic, batteries low that's all).

So as usual, i pretended as if i forgot to go for a jog in the park. Finally, got out of my bed at 10am, only having to hear the " soothing" music from the renovation & construction from the house just 2 floors above us.NEIGHBOURS= TORTURE! especially the one staying above us...Oh those kids! They're like mini-devils running around plus their smelly dogs tied in their kitchen balcony (which explains why our kitchen area smells like wet dog) & dragging the chairs at 1am ( i had to use a pole to bang against the ceiling to get to stop them from playing with marbles & coins one night!). And Oh yes, how can i forget the karaoke singing by the old folks every weekend, every f***ing weekend, living in the opposite block.( I still remember i got so pist off, i shouted out of my window "You suck."Thought it would work. I was wrong!They sang even louder, deafening my ears).Although for all the annoying neighbours they are good ones too.The girl who plays the piano is really good. Makes me feel calm and relax every time she plays her music pieces.Also, we are blessed with a good next door neighbour.Praise the lord.

Anyways, i watched television, little bit of surfing the Internet, watched the usual 6pm-7pm Tyra bank's show, 9:30pm-11pm shows, and back to writing this wonderful boring blog of mine. I wonder at times, when i already have a diary of my own why the hell should i have a blog. Well, one advantage is I can let you guys know who i really am.Hehehe, but of course, some stuff that's going in my life will not be revealed in this blog. PRIVATE & CONFIDENTIAL! But of course, i remembered that i threw my old diary to erase the past ( primary school days). I don't regret that though. I had so many bad experiences than good ones which explains my hatred of going back to primary school.Always forcing myself. The look on my sister's face on every teacher's day, "Do we have to go?" that stupid puppy face. I painfully say yes. I mean we have to show our faces or else they might think that we're being ungrateful. ( Like primary school did anything good to us. Just pure embarrassment and even more humiliation).

K gtg! Today's my interview.Have to wake up early. Wish me good luck light!nite

Too Hard on myself!

Hey light & to the rest of you guys.. Today started off ok. Went to collect my brother's medicine and bought morning breakfast. Basically i spend the rest of the day watching movies. Anyways, I have not been feeling good today. Not sick, but these days, one thing that i have observed about myself is that i am getting irritated very easily and losing my patience about so many things and have been putting alot stress on myself. Some people have told me that they were jealous of me. These are the reasons.

1) My mom doing Avon business so i get the best lipstick etc.
2)Have many friends
3)Get to have the most fanciest clothes
4)Have a great family
5) brilliant
6)have all the money
7) no problems
8) Close relatives and cousins

TRUTH
1) We can't afford to buy over $600 of make up sets in Singapore! You crazy arh!Want cheap but good quality best place go Malaysia or you could get those cheap products from my mom.
2) "Hi Bye" friends 70%
Look at me but ignore ( Go Fish (I'm trying to be decent) Off) 2%
Best friends(2%)
Friends who just smile (24%)
3) girls there is such thing as sales! Like Duh!!
4) Think again! My family isn't a great family. I dun wish to point out the reasons for not being a great family.
5) Brilliant? People, ask me this question again, I'll flash you my o'level results! After that think carefully before you use this word "Brilliant" again.
6) I ain't rich.Dude there were alot of times we have faced financial difficulties. Although, my parents don't wish to let us feel the pain.
7) Mom sometimes annoying
Dad also double annoying these days
Brother OMG ANNOYING
Sister annoying
Auntie always complaining
But hey these are my family members. No doubt they are annoying hehe, i still love them. They are the only family i have!I will always treasure them and i know myself that they will always be there for me, giving me confidence to achieve my dream of becoming an actress.
P.S By the way, when that day comes, i will laugh at all those assholes who said i cannot make it in my life. I WILL MAKE IT! WAIT & SEE!
8) I only get to meet them in funerals.

HAHA! Overall Please don't be me. If you were in my state i don't even think any of you people out there can survive being in my shoes for even a day. I laughed to them, you people have cousins, good friends, relatives to cheer you up. Don't even dare to be me.It just makes me laugh when some people say that they want to be me..

Lately my sister has been quite negative to me. She told me that i can never be able to speak in tamil fluently. GIRL! I will! Plus we're not to be blamed for not speaking in tamil. Haiz, i need to go to church tomorrow to relax myself through praying. Plus will be going to meena's house. Anyways, hopefully meena gets her job! Best of luck to her. I will be going to ritz calton hotel for an interview for a front office receptionist position on tuesday. Wish me luck light, that i will get the job. Anyways gotta go. Nites.

Out for Lunch

Today I met Meena in Bishan Mrt. We went out for lunch at the food junction in Bishan Junction 8. Went around the mall and managed to get meena to try out a dress, she looked nice though wearing that black dress with red belt. We even got some neoprints of ourselves ( do check them out in my Friendster Account). Anyways, so many good news to tell you light. My sister made it to NP for nursing. Horray! In future she could go into the field of dentistry or medicine. Maybe a cosmetic plastic surgeon i hope. I heard that they can paid with a 6 digit amount in America.

My best friend, Priscilla made it to biomedical science in RP. So happy for her too. Plus, meena is going for an interview to medicorp as an assistant producer. So good! Haiz, so jealous of her!Also, today my left eye kept twitching for a long time and i knew it that i was going to see someone who either missed me a lot or that i have not seen that person for a while. As we got into Bishan Mrt station to go home, I met Satya, my drama friend.A good friend no doubt I had a negative impression on him on the first day in the acting workshop, but i was wrong as i got to know him even more. You might be wondering to yourself, is this girl crazy, how come she knows she is going to meet someone she knows just through that twitch, you might take it as a supersitious bullshit but it has worked for me everytime. On the other hand, if my right eye twitches, it means i am going to cry for something really bad. And it does happen. Haiz, i don't know about you and i don't care what you think about me but it is true.

Plus today, in Indonesia an earthquake of a scale of 6.6 for both the first and the after shock occurred. My dad and my sister felt the tremors today even my neighbours too. Hahaha, the funny thing happened was my sister was screaming because literally the chair in the study room was shaking as she sat on it when she felt the tremors while my exhausted mom was taking her nap oblivious to what was happening.Many areas in Singapore, people either rushed out of their homes or buildings to the streets wondering what has happened? Why the building was shaking? afraid the building was going to collapse. They felt the tremors that lasted for onli 20 -30 seconds. In Indonesia, 82 people have died and many are injuried. Hopefully, the east indonesian government will provide and give asistance to the affected families as well as put into thought on how to strengthen their buildings which eventually will safe innocent lives in future.

Anyways, Meena was telling me during lunch, of how a 9 year old Indian girl was pregnant, the father a sec 2 boy is now serving his sentence in a boys home. The thought of a 9 year old girl having sex, and stating that it was pleasurable when she did it with the guy whom she liked for quite long. This is utterly disgusting. The surprising thing was that the parents did not observe anything unusual from her.Plus how come a 9 year old knows alot about sex. All I know is that when i was 9 years old i was a total nerd,a loner and very DUHHH!I didn't even know what was sex then until schools conducted sex education.Hahaha! What has the world become? Sooner or later, there might be a possibility that a 5 year old kid goes smoking and drinking in front of his 13 year old mother. Who knows?

Anyways, gotta go...Will update to you soon on my boring life!

Career fair

Thank god atleast today wasn't as boring as it is on other boring days. My sister, Priscilla and I went for the career fair today in Suntec convention centre. We managed to get all our questions answered. I too managed to get all the required booklets for myself to be prepared of what i'm going to face when I head to AU later.At about 4pm,we head to PastaMania for late lunch. Well, that's about it i guess! Oh plus, i was watching Sun Tv today on a game programme especially for couples.. For a moment, i thought i saw an older version of my dad standing there with another woman. My dad too got a shock of his life, he was wondering," Man, the guy looks exactly like me! WHAT the hell!" All of us were dumbfonded. He managed to take a picture of that man. HAHAHA! I guess it is true that in this world there are 7 people who look just like yourself. My dad has finally found his twin. lol! I still can't believe what i saw.

Anyways, tomorrow I have to call up a few companies for jobs.Also, Hopefully kids central will call me up, there's still another 8 days more. I don't wish to lose my confidence in it. Plus on tuesday, i'll be meeting meena for lunch in Bishan. Ok then, that's all i have for today. Gd night!

The Pursuit Of Happyness

Hello light & to all the lovely people out there. Yesterday, i watched "The Pursuit Of Happyness." Will smith and his son acted really well. The character Chris Gardner played by Will smith is a man filled with alot of confidence, hope and faith even though he struggled to sell all of his "time machines" hahaha! (you will know why i said that, when you watched the movie) to feed his son and to be able to survive in this terrible finanical state that he was in.

I ask you, how would you feel, when the government takes out your $600 from your account just because you didn't pay the taxes, leaving only $21 in your account, have a son to feed, you are living in a rented apartment that you haven't paid 3 months rent fee & the landlord is bugging you to leave? Moving from shelter to shelter. TERRIBLE,DESPERATE & HELPLESS! that's how you would feel. While watching the movie, I could feel for the character.

Although, i didn't like Chris's wife. She's just selfish and not being supportive at all. Yes i can see that she is struggling but can't she understand that Chris t00 is trying his best to get as much money as he can. There is a saying "Behind every man's success there is a woman." In this case, i deny it totally. Overall, smith gave a solid performance including his son (Jaden smith is so adorable, he looks just like his mom). I particularly loved two scenes in that movie.

One was when Smith locked the toilet door, so that he and is son could sleep in the toilet after being chased out of the motel for not paying the rent. The way his son sleeps on his lap so innocently while he cries silently. The other scene was when his boss announced to him that he could start working as a stockbroker after 6 painful months of internship without getting paid plus personal struggle. The joy that he displayed on his face when heard that he made it finally and the way he ran to the place where they cant spell "happiness" correctly, carried his son and hugged him so tightly. The expression and body language Smith displayed is just so over whelming. Good job Smith. The real Chris Gardner has his very own million dollar company under his control, 2006. Utterly amazing! I wonder why did Thomas Jefferson said The pursuit of happiness so many times? I know the answer! Happiness just do not come easily. You have to earn it to know the value of happiness. That is why the very rich do not what is the value of a $1!

I then came to a conclusion, that a man like Chris have gone through so much just to achieve that same happiness, i don't see why all of us can't.Have trust in yourself. Everyone of you out there please just because your boyfriend dumped you or your mom just scolded you that you are useless bastard, it doesn't mean that you have to come to a conclusion that it is pointless to be alive. Because if you want something go for it never drop it just because some morons say that you are useless and a waste. No point going to the extend of committing suicide, cuz if you did, you have just lost out a lot of things. Be hopeful and never give up!

I know myself that i want to live so that when i achieve my dream i want to feel that same "Pursuit Of happyness" just like Chris did! Ok that's all for now! Nites.