Exhaustion

Hi peeps. my spins were not as perfect as suppose to be.Went shopping with my guruji,Anjum. Today was rather an exhausting day for me. I have no idea why i have been feeling so low and light headed. I don't feel myself. My mind is not with me. I bet yoga would definitely not help.I tried doing yoga, once, by watching HOME & HEALTH at 5:30 am and only cursing myself for spraining my feet. I went for my kathak dance today. I did good.Though

I constantly tried reading a book today. Not helping. Right now, I hate the fact that so many people are telling me constantly that i am indenial.IM NOT! DEFINITELY NOT! Indenial of love.FUCK IT! My good friend, ruku advised me.Oh god, what the hell am i getting myself into? She was telling me to erase the thought about my hatred against love. And it will definitely help me. I told her i will try my best. My sister on the other hand, (CHECK OUT THE TAG BOX)
I guess i really need some peaceful place. My sister told me that in our lives we have 9 principles. Check out her blog: inmydairy.wordpress.com. She told me to put my career(one of the 9 principles) one side, and think about all the other principles. If only we could see for our eyes or touch to convince ourselves that the person really loves you.If only there is scientific prove.Only see to believe. Then again, i ask myself how can we convince ourselves that our parents really loves us. Right now, I am too tired,physically and mentally. I guess i am going to my fort and meet my silence tomorrow. Silence is the church, and my fort is the rocks at the park in front of my house. Hope you peeps have a better day then me. My life is bascially a question mark though with goals and a dream in my heart.