Hi Light,
Hi peeps and light. I have just begun to understand the hardships and have faced failures in the beginning of my career.Though, I have worked hard for Uncle taxi engae pogudhu, i decided to leave at episode 18. I just couldn't get along with Vishnu. Not that he is demanding, he is just plain egoistic. I moved out of UTEP and joined Nagharaj in Iyantra. I guess i had a fair share of learning what is producing in a hard way in UTEP. I am glad to have stepped in two different genres and learned the best and worst from both. I guess i was much more at ease and happy though cranky most of the time due to the tight schedules in Iyantra, with the help of Nagharaj and Koki i could still survive.
I am now acting full time in a drama with Spectra Productions. This time I am learning and getting myself trained in a hard way itself on learning chunky long dialogues in just 5 mins and delivering it in 4 takes. I am learning. I guess that It is time for me to trained myself. I sometimes feel that I should get myself embarrassed to be able to do good.
Sharvaz and I split however we are still good friends. I totally understood that he needed attention and I couldn't give him that due to my work. I want him to explore other relationships. I felt to me that we had alot of differences. Alot of things which he had to learn and I am not denying that I have to learn alot about life too. However, a person who tells me that I shouldnt be working is really annoying. Because building my career was my first priority.
I am now dating Nagharaj. I hope everything goes well.
Anyways, I have not been feeling well. I am going to take an early sleep
Friday, May 1, 2009
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
THE MEDIA AND MUAH
Hi light and peeps. I have unfortunately lost 9 kilos and have become an extremely unhealthy individual as told by a BMI machine and a personal trainer that I interviewed for my hosting programme, Illamai Connections airing on the 24th Oct 2008. My hard work and baby, Uncle taxi engae Pogudhu is airing on television on the 21st Oct 2008. And I am acting in a telemovie airing on Deepavali in the afternoon.So do check me out.
My relationship with Sharvaz is going strong and fine. However, for our time and distance we try to make time for each other. Like he always says it is the journey that is important that i should treasure and remember. I love him too much.He just makes me feel so light, avoiding every other existing problem and telling me to enjoy life during the time that i am with him.
I seriously hope that My career will go extremely well. I feel glad yet exhausted yet excitied....Alot of mixed emotions good and bad.
I Hope you readers would keep me posted with your much exciting lives. Thank you for supporting me this far. And this is not and never will be the end of my life and breath for career.Acting my passion, my breath my everything.God bless everyone.
My relationship with Sharvaz is going strong and fine. However, for our time and distance we try to make time for each other. Like he always says it is the journey that is important that i should treasure and remember. I love him too much.He just makes me feel so light, avoiding every other existing problem and telling me to enjoy life during the time that i am with him.
I seriously hope that My career will go extremely well. I feel glad yet exhausted yet excitied....Alot of mixed emotions good and bad.
I Hope you readers would keep me posted with your much exciting lives. Thank you for supporting me this far. And this is not and never will be the end of my life and breath for career.Acting my passion, my breath my everything.God bless everyone.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Vulnerable
Hi Light and peeps. I realise its been weeks since i have updated and i sincerely apologise for that. I have finally got a job as an Assistant Producer under Tantra Incorporated Pte Ltd, a private television production company which has produced many acclaimed programmes, like planet galatta & others. Hurray.Working with Dhool Host, Vishnu and Siva my advanced diploma Classmate and friend.
I disagree with my previous entry about my relationship with Sharvaz. His good friend, Satya can be as happy as he want to be with his current girl friend. I forgive him, though he never admitted, his conscience knows. I am slightly angry with him for being an absoluate coward, however I have to thank him indirectly for through him I have met the Guy who finally made me feel vulnerable, Sharvaz Warren. Who knew that when Satya told me about the tall joker guy, is going to be my current boyfriend.
My relationship life with him WAS doubtful. Now, I am sure that this Relationship will work out. He is the sweetest,patient ( mind you it is so important to me. Since I'm an impatient girl) and understanding guy. He actually waited for me nearly 2 hours at my office, accompained me to Tampines Mall to get the necessary props for the current programme that I am working under. He makes me feel vulnerable and I admit i did felt nervous when I was with him in the beginning. Eventually, I have been able ( Mind you as I am typing this entry, he is waiting impatiently for the first time for me to update this blog. Pandi) to break out of my own coccon.
He has waited for me in several occasions, which no one i know have. Plus. which boyfriend is able to make sure every moment is interesting.RISKS that's what he loves. Within a week, I met him Mom, how fast. He brought me to my 2nd best place for hideout and hangout, back gate of Changi Airport. I brought Meena there. She was dumbstruck. It is an awesome place.
As for my interesting adventure for him, I brought him to the Battle Box, where it is the must see place for Singaporeans.(Special moment: He knows what it is).I even got him to meet Mr Segar at the Central Fire Station and Mr JR at the JR texas. Plus our secret meetings at Sunplaza Park Tampines is the most memorable. How can we forget the 3 meetings? The two best and our worst meeting which was yesterday.
I am exhausted to even type this entry. Energy drainer. However will update in the details tomorrow.Cheers.
I disagree with my previous entry about my relationship with Sharvaz. His good friend, Satya can be as happy as he want to be with his current girl friend. I forgive him, though he never admitted, his conscience knows. I am slightly angry with him for being an absoluate coward, however I have to thank him indirectly for through him I have met the Guy who finally made me feel vulnerable, Sharvaz Warren. Who knew that when Satya told me about the tall joker guy, is going to be my current boyfriend.
My relationship life with him WAS doubtful. Now, I am sure that this Relationship will work out. He is the sweetest,patient ( mind you it is so important to me. Since I'm an impatient girl) and understanding guy. He actually waited for me nearly 2 hours at my office, accompained me to Tampines Mall to get the necessary props for the current programme that I am working under. He makes me feel vulnerable and I admit i did felt nervous when I was with him in the beginning. Eventually, I have been able ( Mind you as I am typing this entry, he is waiting impatiently for the first time for me to update this blog. Pandi) to break out of my own coccon.
He has waited for me in several occasions, which no one i know have. Plus. which boyfriend is able to make sure every moment is interesting.RISKS that's what he loves. Within a week, I met him Mom, how fast. He brought me to my 2nd best place for hideout and hangout, back gate of Changi Airport. I brought Meena there. She was dumbstruck. It is an awesome place.
As for my interesting adventure for him, I brought him to the Battle Box, where it is the must see place for Singaporeans.(Special moment: He knows what it is).I even got him to meet Mr Segar at the Central Fire Station and Mr JR at the JR texas. Plus our secret meetings at Sunplaza Park Tampines is the most memorable. How can we forget the 3 meetings? The two best and our worst meeting which was yesterday.
I am exhausted to even type this entry. Energy drainer. However will update in the details tomorrow.Cheers.
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Where is Leasha?
Hi my lovable light and peeps. These past few weeks have made me go nuts.And have turned me into a zombie.I am crying while i am typing this post.Yes, i know what you are thinking? Where has Leasha Gone? You must be assuming that that i am doing really great mentally, after all i took more than 2 months of anti-social deprivation. It worked perfectly until others stepped into my life and tried to destroy it again. I suppose its a gift from god, to test my patience!!! Hell no!!! Swesh...my beautiful and peaceful yet doubtful life was doing great. ......I remember drinking hot chocolate at exactly 5pm, standing confidently at the 859 bus lane and talking to my good friend May, at how wonderful life has become. Until, Jason came in. And there goes ,my peace. WEEEEE.....down the drain.
Light, i know exactly what you are thinking. i am being melodramatic. After which, i thought that i did not want to cheat satya my EX-BOYFRIEND! yes, EX past tense! Ended up, he cheated me.I realised that relationships does hurt no doubt i did not fell in love with him.It's the trust and friendship. After 7 months of dating, and 2 months of not communicating. Sharvish a good friend of his told me that he has dated two other girls while dating me.I got to know sharvish coincidentally through friendster. No idea that they were both friends.Neither he, knew that i was his good friend's gf, while he drooled over 2 other girls. Why didn't he tell me? Why me? Am i naive? I was not. Ok i agree i was.
Damn it, if he is in love with the other girls he could have told me. I would have let him go. The worst thing that really made me fume , was when sharvish told me that he (satya bastard)said that we never went on!! NEVER WENT ON!!!! Holy mother of god, you should have seen the look on my face when he told me that atrocious statement. How could he? Does he not have a conscience? Maybe satya is gay and his trying to prove himself that he is straight and comforts himself by dating many girls.haha. Thank god, there was no physical attraction between us, thank god i did not give in my precious lips to him. Thank you god! But then again, i doubted whenever he keeps telling me that I am beautiful!!Repeatedly and i felt so irritated no doubt i hid it.
On the 26th june, i met up with sharvish after several other lunches. He asked me whether if he had a chance to went on with me.I avoided that question. Until that day, 26th june. He asked me bluntly. I was dumbstruck.I so badly wanted to say NO! Because it was too fast. Too fast. It is of less than 2 weeks, since i knew about satya and eventually meeting him.After in between minutes of my voice screaming into my head, " OH my god" "And god please help me" "I am so going to run fast away from you" i eventually said YES forcefully! where are you LEASHA????
On that same day, as we were walking towards the woodlands mrt, I saw him(satya) with his malay girlfriend. God, i swear i had a split vision of me walking towards him, smacking his face, tearing his hair out of his numb skull and tell his girlfriend what a jerk he was in front of thousands of people who were rushing down the escalators. Then i was brought back again into reality. withdrawn from my vision, split away. I just stared. Stared at him, he smiling at that girl, (That girl, oblivious of who that guy in front of her really is!) as people walked past me. Pushing me side by side, like as if i was invisible.
How could he? I just walked through the crowd. As i walked up the escalator, i just looked at him and wanted so badly to ask him, why? What did you gain? How could you lie that what we went through was nothing. Please don't insult love. Not that i believed in it! But i never insulted it. How could i have believed him?
I remembered His smile just staring right at me, as the doors of the mrt shut close, right in front of me. The closing of one chapter and the opening of the other.
I seriously have lost myself. I want Leasha back, so badly. Not some zombie staring at the computer typing this and grieving over the fact of saying yes all the time. Maybe it must be that book May lend me. The manipulative "The year of yes"!!! it must be!! I am so going to finish up that book first. I mean how dirty men can be? Not that i have not seen enough.I already experienced one.
Until sharvish.The things that he mentions, i do not wish to reveal it here. However, i need to make it clear.That it is just dating. I am exhausted, mentally. I need to concentrate on the most important things, not that i have not. It's just i need to get away. I feel that no one understands me. Except you Light.I need you. I want to meet you tmr. Just be there for me would you! Please, just wait for me!
Love and relationships has the power to alter and define our lives.How true is it? But is it because, we let it alter us? Who controls who? Why do people obsess over it? While I constantly try to avoid it, yet it comes all the way back again. By the way, my visions came true again. Changi!! If only i could understand my visions even before they happen. Conclusion, I never will believe in love and my respect for most of guys have diminished!! I am wiping off the tears off my cheeks.sIGH.Off to study my final theory.
PS i want leasha back.The one that constantly thinks about so many other better things. I so desperately need siva to give me that job From tantra ink. I need a diversion.NOW!!I really desperately need it!!!Please!!
Light, i know exactly what you are thinking. i am being melodramatic. After which, i thought that i did not want to cheat satya my EX-BOYFRIEND! yes, EX past tense! Ended up, he cheated me.I realised that relationships does hurt no doubt i did not fell in love with him.It's the trust and friendship. After 7 months of dating, and 2 months of not communicating. Sharvish a good friend of his told me that he has dated two other girls while dating me.I got to know sharvish coincidentally through friendster. No idea that they were both friends.Neither he, knew that i was his good friend's gf, while he drooled over 2 other girls. Why didn't he tell me? Why me? Am i naive? I was not. Ok i agree i was.
Damn it, if he is in love with the other girls he could have told me. I would have let him go. The worst thing that really made me fume , was when sharvish told me that he (satya bastard)said that we never went on!! NEVER WENT ON!!!! Holy mother of god, you should have seen the look on my face when he told me that atrocious statement. How could he? Does he not have a conscience? Maybe satya is gay and his trying to prove himself that he is straight and comforts himself by dating many girls.haha. Thank god, there was no physical attraction between us, thank god i did not give in my precious lips to him. Thank you god! But then again, i doubted whenever he keeps telling me that I am beautiful!!Repeatedly and i felt so irritated no doubt i hid it.
On the 26th june, i met up with sharvish after several other lunches. He asked me whether if he had a chance to went on with me.I avoided that question. Until that day, 26th june. He asked me bluntly. I was dumbstruck.I so badly wanted to say NO! Because it was too fast. Too fast. It is of less than 2 weeks, since i knew about satya and eventually meeting him.After in between minutes of my voice screaming into my head, " OH my god" "And god please help me" "I am so going to run fast away from you" i eventually said YES forcefully! where are you LEASHA????
On that same day, as we were walking towards the woodlands mrt, I saw him(satya) with his malay girlfriend. God, i swear i had a split vision of me walking towards him, smacking his face, tearing his hair out of his numb skull and tell his girlfriend what a jerk he was in front of thousands of people who were rushing down the escalators. Then i was brought back again into reality. withdrawn from my vision, split away. I just stared. Stared at him, he smiling at that girl, (That girl, oblivious of who that guy in front of her really is!) as people walked past me. Pushing me side by side, like as if i was invisible.
How could he? I just walked through the crowd. As i walked up the escalator, i just looked at him and wanted so badly to ask him, why? What did you gain? How could you lie that what we went through was nothing. Please don't insult love. Not that i believed in it! But i never insulted it. How could i have believed him?
I remembered His smile just staring right at me, as the doors of the mrt shut close, right in front of me. The closing of one chapter and the opening of the other.
I seriously have lost myself. I want Leasha back, so badly. Not some zombie staring at the computer typing this and grieving over the fact of saying yes all the time. Maybe it must be that book May lend me. The manipulative "The year of yes"!!! it must be!! I am so going to finish up that book first. I mean how dirty men can be? Not that i have not seen enough.I already experienced one.
Until sharvish.The things that he mentions, i do not wish to reveal it here. However, i need to make it clear.That it is just dating. I am exhausted, mentally. I need to concentrate on the most important things, not that i have not. It's just i need to get away. I feel that no one understands me. Except you Light.I need you. I want to meet you tmr. Just be there for me would you! Please, just wait for me!
Love and relationships has the power to alter and define our lives.How true is it? But is it because, we let it alter us? Who controls who? Why do people obsess over it? While I constantly try to avoid it, yet it comes all the way back again. By the way, my visions came true again. Changi!! If only i could understand my visions even before they happen. Conclusion, I never will believe in love and my respect for most of guys have diminished!! I am wiping off the tears off my cheeks.sIGH.Off to study my final theory.
PS i want leasha back.The one that constantly thinks about so many other better things. I so desperately need siva to give me that job From tantra ink. I need a diversion.NOW!!I really desperately need it!!!Please!!
Sunday, June 1, 2008
My stress reliever
Hi peeps and light.lOTS HAS HAPPENED OVER THIS PAST FEW WEEKS. Between jason and me.Jason is a friend of mine that i have met up with after 6 years.The last time we actually spoken was primary 6. Things got out of hand.Only my close friends and ruku is up to date on the latest issues. Anyways, Siva my friend and advanced diploma classmate was kind enough to say my name to Tantra Ink productions where he is currently working for. I seriously felt i cocked up my audition however according to Siva they liked me.!!!I don't know why.According to my sister, "maybe people just love weirdos as such they liked you!"
Been punching walls consectively for 2 days as my emotional and stress reliever. I have become numb. My boyfriend is not paying attention to me and i think that i have lost him. Anyways, i just came back from Sam's bbq,it's close to 3 am right now. It was fun and tim's brandy chickens were yummy!!I drank alcohol, just 6% nothing big lah... Haiz..Anyways, i have totally become numb and i really hope i get either the hosting or the acting job so as to release my pain and anger in a positive way. Hopefully everything goes well. I just can not wait to head down to esplande later on with my besti meena. Nites
Been punching walls consectively for 2 days as my emotional and stress reliever. I have become numb. My boyfriend is not paying attention to me and i think that i have lost him. Anyways, i just came back from Sam's bbq,it's close to 3 am right now. It was fun and tim's brandy chickens were yummy!!I drank alcohol, just 6% nothing big lah... Haiz..Anyways, i have totally become numb and i really hope i get either the hosting or the acting job so as to release my pain and anger in a positive way. Hopefully everything goes well. I just can not wait to head down to esplande later on with my besti meena. Nites
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
I need to let go
Hey light and peeps. It's been a while for me since i updated.Although it seems to be a decade. Alot of in speakable things has happened over this week that i don't wish to share. Anyways, i am still in my greatest book escapism adventure. As i am reading each of the book, I am trying to relate every single book back to my life. As i flip each of the page, the smell of lavender on certain pages ,while others the patches of spilled coffee. I wonder who the previous reader was? And why this book? As i am reading a specific paragraph, did you my previous reader cry just like how i did? What made you want to read it? Just a liking,a hobby or maybe shares a certain familiarity with me, an insane idea of switch.Do the writer and i share the same thoughts or am i manipulated to think the same way as you do, my wonderful saviour?
You know i am absolutely grateful and have no regrets of choosing this adventure. Because i actually relate my life to it.And i realised that it's just the beginning of a change. I am lost in this trail of books.
About my exercise regim, i have lost 5kg from my previous weight of 45kg. However, i have learned to eat right and understand that by skipping meals it will never be healthy for me.
I am back to reading.Catch up with you soon.
BTW, A SPECIAL SHOUTOUT TO MY GOOD FRIEND WITH THE UNFORGETTABLE LAUGHTER , JANICE (13TH MAY) !!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOUGHNUT !! A SMACKDOWN ADVANCE GREETING TO ANOTHER GOOD FRIEND OF MINE, THE ONE WITH THE ALL SO MIXED UP YET NICELY WORN , MAY( 25th MAY). HAPPY BIRTHDAY WHIPPED CREAM!!!
Missed you girls. I can't wait to meet up with you and have a blast at our favourite hangout, The Mind's Cafe. Ok, alright we're not going to have those candles and will definitely keep in mind not to burn down the cafe. Although, i secretly hope to see the china guy again. I wonder what will be his reaction when he hears that we are having another birthday celebration.YIKES, THEY'RE BACK.RUN!!! I am sure as we girls step into the cafe, if the boss remembers, they might panic. I wonder do they have a warning alarm zone just to remind them of our existence? Maybe some anxiety attacks.Just like how any mother will feel,the fear, whenever she leaves her child alone in her room.The fear of repetition: the child giggling and jumping up and down in joy as he/she scribbles gibberish on the mother's painted wall with her lipstick.NO!!! The Cafe boss, i bestow you Mr Grumpy, must have nicknamed us as the destroyers or the bloodsucking group? or have they banned celebrations right after our fiesco...haha..I wonder. Missed Annie though. i wonder what might she be doing in Vietnam right now.
You know i am absolutely grateful and have no regrets of choosing this adventure. Because i actually relate my life to it.And i realised that it's just the beginning of a change. I am lost in this trail of books.
About my exercise regim, i have lost 5kg from my previous weight of 45kg. However, i have learned to eat right and understand that by skipping meals it will never be healthy for me.
I am back to reading.Catch up with you soon.
BTW, A SPECIAL SHOUTOUT TO MY GOOD FRIEND WITH THE UNFORGETTABLE LAUGHTER , JANICE (13TH MAY) !!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY DOUGHNUT !! A SMACKDOWN ADVANCE GREETING TO ANOTHER GOOD FRIEND OF MINE, THE ONE WITH THE ALL SO MIXED UP YET NICELY WORN , MAY( 25th MAY). HAPPY BIRTHDAY WHIPPED CREAM!!!
Missed you girls. I can't wait to meet up with you and have a blast at our favourite hangout, The Mind's Cafe. Ok, alright we're not going to have those candles and will definitely keep in mind not to burn down the cafe. Although, i secretly hope to see the china guy again. I wonder what will be his reaction when he hears that we are having another birthday celebration.YIKES, THEY'RE BACK.RUN!!! I am sure as we girls step into the cafe, if the boss remembers, they might panic. I wonder do they have a warning alarm zone just to remind them of our existence? Maybe some anxiety attacks.Just like how any mother will feel,the fear, whenever she leaves her child alone in her room.The fear of repetition: the child giggling and jumping up and down in joy as he/she scribbles gibberish on the mother's painted wall with her lipstick.NO!!! The Cafe boss, i bestow you Mr Grumpy, must have nicknamed us as the destroyers or the bloodsucking group? or have they banned celebrations right after our fiesco...haha..I wonder. Missed Annie though. i wonder what might she be doing in Vietnam right now.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
The Paradice Lyrics....
Hey peeps and light..i was deleting some of my documents in my laptop.When i came across this lyrics. This is our song, the Paradice song that we created for the first presentation of Public relations, in advanced diploma in mass communication.This is the song, that bonded 6 different lives. Janice,May,Nurul,Mitch, Annie and myself. We actually practised the dance opposite Istana (The president's place).
If i am not wrong, May do still have the video that we danced.
Paradice lyrics
If you ain’t got no money take your broke ass homeYou say: if you ain’t got no money take your broke ass homeP-A-R-A-D-I-C-E yeah, P-A-R-A-D-I-C-E (The boards and switching places of May,Janice and Annie.They too jumped very glamourously)
(section)
We’re playing poker
At paradice
Winning money
Livin’ the life
Oh, so easy, Winning the game
Down at paradice, oh so busy, busy
I remembered catching my breath as i rapped this part..haha..
it's located at wheelock place,
in the heart of orchard peeps
Twenty four hours yes
you don't even have to sleep
if you're above 21,
you can play it in style,
25,000 hungry peeps,
4 different cuisines,
only for you,in seven star
feel like jamming
celion dion, ricky martin, crazy house caberate in september
it is real and they are performing here just for you
sippin,eminscing on the days when will singapore have one
and finally
Nurul's and Mitch's part..They grooved really well.
I’ve got no problems down hereI’ve got nothing left to fear Cause I’m of the legal ageAnd I can spend my cash down hereI’ve got money in the bankAnd I’d really like to spendAll the cash I’d like to spendTill I’ve won some moreBut this cash is not enoughCause I really wanna win The 3 days 2 night stay at ritzDamm, im just a little shortSo i guess I’ll stay till 4I’m glad my husband got the cash, he lets me spent it all
If i am not wrong, May do still have the video that we danced.
Paradice lyrics
If you ain’t got no money take your broke ass homeYou say: if you ain’t got no money take your broke ass homeP-A-R-A-D-I-C-E yeah, P-A-R-A-D-I-C-E (The boards and switching places of May,Janice and Annie.They too jumped very glamourously)
(section)
We’re playing poker
At paradice
Winning money
Livin’ the life
Oh, so easy, Winning the game
Down at paradice, oh so busy, busy
I remembered catching my breath as i rapped this part..haha..
it's located at wheelock place,
in the heart of orchard peeps
Twenty four hours yes
you don't even have to sleep
if you're above 21,
you can play it in style,
25,000 hungry peeps,
4 different cuisines,
only for you,in seven star
feel like jamming
celion dion, ricky martin, crazy house caberate in september
it is real and they are performing here just for you
sippin,eminscing on the days when will singapore have one
and finally
Nurul's and Mitch's part..They grooved really well.
I’ve got no problems down hereI’ve got nothing left to fear Cause I’m of the legal ageAnd I can spend my cash down hereI’ve got money in the bankAnd I’d really like to spendAll the cash I’d like to spendTill I’ve won some moreBut this cash is not enoughCause I really wanna win The 3 days 2 night stay at ritzDamm, im just a little shortSo i guess I’ll stay till 4I’m glad my husband got the cash, he lets me spent it all
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
About Me
- MOMENTS
- I'm a total boredom thats what i think about myself as most oftenly. I'm an outgoing person, always giving a listening ear ,optimistic at times but most of the time doubtful.Thats abt it..u gotta find out abt me yourself more just by reading my blog as often as you can.
