Where is Leasha?

Hi my lovable light and peeps. These past few weeks have made me go nuts.And have turned me into a zombie.I am crying while i am typing this post.Yes, i know what you are thinking? Where has Leasha Gone? You must be assuming that that i am doing really great mentally, after all i took more than 2 months of anti-social deprivation. It worked perfectly until others stepped into my life and tried to destroy it again. I suppose its a gift from god, to test my patience!!! Hell no!!! Swesh...my beautiful and peaceful yet doubtful life was doing great. ......I remember drinking hot chocolate at exactly 5pm, standing confidently at the 859 bus lane and talking to my good friend May, at how wonderful life has become. Until, Jason came in. And there goes ,my peace. WEEEEE.....down the drain.

I seriously have lost myself. I want Leasha back, so badly. Not some zombie staring at the computer typing this and grieving over the fact of saying yes all the time. Maybe it must be that book May lend me. The manipulative "The year of yes"!!! it must be!! I am so going to finish up that book first. I mean how dirty men can be? Not that i have not seen enough.I already experienced one.


Love and relationships has the power to alter and define our lives.How true is it? But is it because, we let it alter us? Who controls who? Why do people obsess over it? While I constantly try to avoid it, yet it comes all the way back again. By the way, my visions came true again. Changi!! If only i could understand my visions even before they happen. Conclusion, I never will believe in love and my respect for most of guys have diminished!! I am wiping off the tears off my cheeks.sIGH.Off to study my final theory.


PS i want leasha back.The one that constantly thinks about so many other better things. I so desperately need siva to give me that job From tantra ink. I need a diversion.NOW!!I really desperately need it!!!Please!!