Too Hard on myself!

Hey light & to the rest of you guys.. Today started off ok. Went to collect my brother's medicine and bought morning breakfast. Basically i spend the rest of the day watching movies. Anyways, I have not been feeling good today. Not sick, but these days, one thing that i have observed about myself is that i am getting irritated very easily and losing my patience about so many things and have been putting alot stress on myself. Some people have told me that they were jealous of me. These are the reasons.

1) My mom doing Avon business so i get the best lipstick etc.
2)Have many friends
3)Get to have the most fanciest clothes
4)Have a great family
5) brilliant
6)have all the money
7) no problems
8) Close relatives and cousins

TRUTH
1) We can't afford to buy over $600 of make up sets in Singapore! You crazy arh!Want cheap but good quality best place go Malaysia or you could get those cheap products from my mom.
2) "Hi Bye" friends 70%
Look at me but ignore ( Go Fish (I'm trying to be decent) Off) 2%
Best friends(2%)
Friends who just smile (24%)
3) girls there is such thing as sales! Like Duh!!
4) Think again! My family isn't a great family. I dun wish to point out the reasons for not being a great family.
5) Brilliant? People, ask me this question again, I'll flash you my o'level results! After that think carefully before you use this word "Brilliant" again.
6) I ain't rich.Dude there were alot of times we have faced financial difficulties. Although, my parents don't wish to let us feel the pain.
7) Mom sometimes annoying
Dad also double annoying these days
Brother OMG ANNOYING
Sister annoying
Auntie always complaining
But hey these are my family members. No doubt they are annoying hehe, i still love them. They are the only family i have!I will always treasure them and i know myself that they will always be there for me, giving me confidence to achieve my dream of becoming an actress.
P.S By the way, when that day comes, i will laugh at all those assholes who said i cannot make it in my life. I WILL MAKE IT! WAIT & SEE!
8) I only get to meet them in funerals.

HAHA! Overall Please don't be me. If you were in my state i don't even think any of you people out there can survive being in my shoes for even a day. I laughed to them, you people have cousins, good friends, relatives to cheer you up. Don't even dare to be me.It just makes me laugh when some people say that they want to be me..

Lately my sister has been quite negative to me. She told me that i can never be able to speak in tamil fluently. GIRL! I will! Plus we're not to be blamed for not speaking in tamil. Haiz, i need to go to church tomorrow to relax myself through praying. Plus will be going to meena's house. Anyways, hopefully meena gets her job! Best of luck to her. I will be going to ritz calton hotel for an interview for a front office receptionist position on tuesday. Wish me luck light, that i will get the job. Anyways gotta go. Nites.