Silence Makes Me Happy

Hey light.It's been quite a while since i updated this blog of mine.Its going half past 1am here and not sleepy at all.Just watched my favourite shows,"Ugly Betty," "America's next top model" and finally "Pepper Dennis."Lately, i am in the worst position.Well, for a start, I thought to myself that it is best not to tell or update my future to any of ex-classmates or anyone except chosen few.You peeps might ask me why?Thank you for all your support but every time i meet anyone of you and you ask me these questions such as "how is your job venture going on?" or "What happened to your plan of going to Melbourne to study?" It always makes my heart sink and i have to turn away from the person so as to just control my feelings and just give back a half smile at them.Just don't ask me any more questions please, its driving me nuts!

I feel the frustration in me by the minute.The anger just brewing inside of me. Everyday i stare at myself in the mirror and question myself whether the path I've chosen is right for me.But today, I've decided that I'm all out to fight for my future and to have my dream come true.No doubts about it at all.Not even one.I know myself too good.I am a risk-taker.And i make sure that i win the race.I will with god's blessings, the support of my family members and my close friends. Most people despise loneliness and hate the silence.But I'm different.I love it.I mean I'm not saying that I don't need my family and friends around its just silence gives me calm,time to think what is my next action in life and to understand myself better. I dare say that updating this pathetic blog of mine has given me an opportunity to get into my head.REALLY inside my head.When i was a kid, i thought life was all about having fun and that everything comes easy.However, from my experiences so far, my answer is it ain't easy and life is tough.VERY TOUGH!I don't know how a few have this perception that life should be taken easy going?Well,peeps I can never be like that.You might advise me that I shouldn't put too much of pressure and stress on myself.All i can tell you is that if you were in my shoes you would think twice,wait a minute make it several times before concluding.Anyways, got to sleep.Good night.